Yea, though I walk THROUGH the Valley...

Jim is coming to the end of Round 2 of his treatment for The Cancer. He has 2 treatments left. After the PET scan showed that the cancer had not shrunk any more, but that it had not spread, AND it had not grown, both of us felt a little deflated. We really thought it would be gone, or at the very least, nearly gone. But, we picked ourselves up, dusted ourselves off, and got back on track. Or at least, I thought WE had. I think Jim has had more of a let-down than he was letting on. He's been more tired, and has not felt well for the last week. Partly, i think he had a stomach virus, but I think he's been a little down because of the results. We thought the Avastin chemical drug was going to CHOKE the cancer and kill it. That is what it was supposed to do. Jim's is just hanging on for all its worth. I'm hoping that when we check after these next 2 treatments, we will see some progress. You hate to go through that much sick feeling, and high cost of meds, to just see the cancer "stabilized."

It's harder, too, for Jim, because my cancer has been taken care of. I think he feels like I've run off and left him behind (which is not true...but our minds play mean tricks on us).

Every day someone we know or love finds out he or she has cancer. It's is so frightening, and it seems to be so prevalent. It is a Beast that is hard to beat, and one that I wish we could completely destroy. I wish we had a vaccination against it; maybe we will...someday.